This week
Hope and I were talking about her recent love for running. This beautiful
girl, as recent as last year, HATED running with a passion. Now she hits the
treadmill on a regular basis for 6-12 miles, sometimes even upping the grade to
12%! Although I never pushed running on her, she has gleaned this love from me
(and her goals from her coach.) We were bantering back and forth when she
grabbed my arm and told me how cool it would be if I was her bio mom. I didn’t
know what to say, but she had words enough for both of us. She went on and on
how much she wished I would be her bio mom—I told her that although she didn’t
grow in my belly she grew in my heart, and she is more like me than some of my
bios!
This has
been bouncing around in my head the past few days. I am deeply touched that she
wants to be my bio child—but at the same time, I am saddened because I
can never be the mom that she deeply desires and needs. No child should have to
endure being “given up” by their mother—made worse by the fact that her past is
shrouded in secrecy. I can strive to be the best mom for her, but even on my
best day, I am still, not the bio.
Even if I
can’t be what she desires, I am still blessed to be what she
needs…today…tomorrow…and every day I am blessed with her.
All my best,
Amy
